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When The Doubt Creeps In. | Lifestyle

bedroom with Doubt Creeps InTonight, I am attending an event thrown by Kiehls to celebrate their latest product launch (the Midnight Recovery Cloud Cream). As part of the evening, they invited us for an overnight stay at the Plaza! I’ve lived in New York my entire life, but have never stayed there so I am very excited.

I’ve been in this industry for a long time and am very  fortunate to get invited to some really great things. However, lately, particulary since covid, I’ve declined way more than I’ve attended. There are many reasons for this. For one, logistics with parenting and childcare can be challenging, sometimes more trouble than it’s worth. Then there are days where I simply just want to be home with my family. Not always (lol), but a lot.

But aside from family, occasionally, doubt can inevitably creep in. While I’ve gotten pretty good at not giving an f about many things-and that has come with age- I’m only human.

When The Doubt Creeps In.

Since the pandemic, I feel like that part of me got a little lost? It’s hard to explain.

Then, within the industry, there’s occasionally the age thing. Once in a while, that voice of doubt can whisper things in your ear like “will everyone be half your age?!”  On one side, I really don’t care, but once in a while, there’s that voice.

I will say, the industry has changed a lot in that regard. When I first started, everyone seemed like they were 20, but over the course of the last ten years, there are so many creatives, influencers, whatever we want to call them, that are a wide range of different ages, something that is so refreshing to see.

But I digress.

All this to say, with age and experience, I’ve gotten really good at recognizing what, for lack of a better phrase, fills my cup. One of those things is not only socializing and human connection, but also challenging myself with situations that in my head, seem intimidating, but in reality, they’re not. At the end of the day, I always remind myself that chances are, most people feel the same exact way.

24 hours later….

I wrote the above as a ramble of my thoughts the day of the event. It’s now the next morning, I’m sitting at a little table at the Plaza, on my laptop, drinking my coffee and feeling so recharged, even with a itty bitty hangover. I almost declined this invitation for no good reason except some silly, self induced doubt.

At dinner last night, I sat at a table with three other wonderful women. Another creative and two others who work on the brand side. The food was incredible, we ate at JoJo by Jean Georges. We had such great conversation, exchanged stories, talked about motherhood, the industry changes since covid and I left feeling so happy.

Again, to think I almost said no.

Huge thanks to Kiehl’s for such a special evening and to myself for telling that little inner voice to shut it.

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